gah

i've been feeling the stress now adays.
its getting more and more
and im getting lazier and lazier.
as you can see in this post.
oh gosh.

happy 2010!

2 more years to 2012 HAHAHA

i actually wnted to do a recap of 2009...
but
thats too long and troublesome.
=x

big events in 2010!

leaving poly =[
going army =[

thats about it.


goodbye2009
hello2010

☺

how come... scholarships have a criteria.

i always thought they were given to people to excel and who are outstanding in their academic performance and CCA.
i mean.
if i perform equally well with this person who meets the criteria.
then i got nothing to say la.
but if i perform better, but i don't meet the criteria.
i dont see why i cannot apply.
well~~~
its just how the world works i guess.

and im not going to say things like i don't have friends anymore.
and like sound like im lonely.
and stuff like that

and to you.
its not like im going to not talk to you forever.
you still owe me 2 dinners and a few double cheese burgers
muahahaha
=x
just not for now.
we need to learn our places in each other's lives

and for those people who are wondering how was bangkok..
i'll put it in point form
-airport is nice =]
-cab drivers choose their costumers.
-traffic is HORRIBLE in the town areas
-bangkok is hot and very humid. (careful. easy to get sick.)
-NEVER consume ice that are from street vendors. only buy canned or glass bottled drinks
-prices are low.. but not as low as china..
-people arnt that nice when bargaining. hahaha
-they actually wont sell you their things when u walk away.
-i fell sick halfway due to the super cold massage room. i core got cold.
-dreamt of visiting gods while sleeping in the hotel room
-shops practically sell the same things over and over again.
-imitation goods are not exactly cheap.
-thai girls chio.
-thai boys.......... no comment.
-thai lady boys...... even more no comment.
-traveling by BTS or their MRT is alot faster in town.
-mango sticky rice=yums
-coconut milk=stomach problems.
-food is cheap and good. (if u know where to look)
-they use coupons instead of cash in the food courts
-u can get a bowl of beef noodles at about SGD$2.50
-and a plate of pad thai at about SGD$1.75 at an airconditioned food court.
-the jewerlly fashion there is outdated. very outdated.
-maps dont have scales. so becareful and prepared if you want to walk somewhere.
-bangkok is not as dangerous than i thought it was.

31'st dec.
last day of 2009
bye bye 2009.
you have been a good year.
good year.
i have a feeling~♪
haha

fly away on a jet plane

Charles will be in bangkok from the 26th to 29th of December.

not like anyone cares.

4:53 am

now i know why my thundercloud is so big and raging.
but its outside my room.

tell me.
how can i help someone.. if i dont understand how they feel.

i am not happy.
and im not going to talk about it.

C.T.

common tests coming soon....
im studying.
haha
tired.
tired tired.
tired.

i went to the gym..
tired.
haha

Playboy

i took off the sticker of us that was on my laptop last night.
after so long.
=]

now there's a clean patch there haha

clean and empty.
just like how i kinda am right now.

like how you know.. something's been there for so long.
then you take it off..
then there's that empty space there..



im trying to fill that space up.
not easy.


and one thing.
when i was trying to search for this picture.
i searched for emptiness..
but most of the pictures are like.. women..
as if only women experience it..

platinum kiss

hey hey.
everytime i log on to blog..
i lose the feeling to blog.
cool ah..
type in username and password..
wait.
click new post.
wait.
and then see this unappealing text box..

no more feel alr la pls haha..
maybe they should make a function like..
when we log in.
let us choose your blog.
then put a "new post" button on top of the entries part of the blog.
then click there and type there and stuff.
no need to come here.

k anyways.
err
im here to blog about...
...
...

i forgot.
see.

=\

yea
i drove a manual today
and stalled.
its a van ah. and vans steering very different from cars.
so i got a shock when trying to evade something.
so i just brake.
then i drive auto too long alr
forgot need to clutch.
hahaha
win

i can so feel a sore throat coming..

and i hope my daddy lets me have the car tmr
=]

weeooo

my room is full of pesky flies... =\
but anyway..

to start off..
cafe cartel..
i think their oil use for 10 years nv change be4.
terrible i tell you.
dun eat there. =x
well
u can order a soup and eat their bread..
hahaha

anyways..
driving alone is fun =]
like i got freedom ya.
want to go where what time just go..
only thing is that petrol expensive ah.
i drive also heart pain =[

yea

今日

私わ日本語のスペーチドラフをかいた。
嬉しいです。　＾＾
すごく大変ですけど。できました。

木曜日MMMテストがあります。までべんきょする。
まああ。。。　気にしないで~　ぜったいかんたんです。
Q(>,<)　よーす！がんばります！！

でわ　今　寝ます。
おやすみ！

=D

popo got discharged from hospital..
it was nothing serious after all..
heng ah..

just gastric...

kk back to normal life.

@@@@@

popo got hospitalised..
x ray says her windpipe there very wide.
not sure what happened yet.


=[

好心 dont always 有好报。

dont mind the emo title.
its just a fact that i learnt throughout my life so far.
as if its very long like that but long enough to know that.
kk

on another note~
im all better already!
no more stomach flu/food poisoning.
yes ah

oh oh and i got a ipod shuffle.
the new one =D
daddy won it in a lucky draw.

school has been bleagh.
havent really start studying and homework is piling up.
with no guo bin around to *ahem* help.
and erm kinda no time...
so yea.
im going to put everything else on hold.
homework first.
and exercise la.

so plan/timetable. is like this..

Monday: school, lunch, homework, home.
Tuesday:school, light lunch, school, gym, homework/slack, home.
Wednesday:school, lunch, homework/school, home.
Thursday:school 9am-8pm. win.
Friday:school 9am-5pm. slack/go out/freetime.
Saturday & Sunday is for rest. not work.

not good.

stomach flu or food poisoning.

=[

either way.
its bad.

fatigue is setting in.
im going to gg
its like im a picture.
thats fading away.

Loner ftw

i've been walking around school alone since im not used to this new life i got of not having a jammed packed schedule.

so i got like free time.
of nothingness.
and so..
with no one to 'date' or follow or tag along or anything..
i walk alone~
around school..
looking at the ppl there..
with their blissful faces..
reminds me of like year 1 and 2.

but the tearing down of blk 72 kinda makes me sad.
cuz i spent so much time there and stuff
now its gone..
=[

and the temp walkway they made.
horrible.
you can feel the heat radiating from the walls.
its crazy.

and i still want my own car...
=x
haha
i tell myself everyday on the bus.
nvm tahan awhile more the day will come.
just to make myself feel better.
cuz i know it wont come.
well maybe.
but its not soon.
=[

Hanging

hanging, hanging, you leave me hanging.
wonder, wondering, if i'll get that chance again.

but i think.......
everything's gonna be alright, alright, alright.

if you'll just think bright.

;]

=.= =.= =.=

I STILL CANT SLEEP.

k.

i'll go force myself to.

加油！！

=.=

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its kinda driving me mad.
and i feel like puking.
=.=

WA.

I caught the emo bug.

sigh..
school faster start pls.


and there's this hole.this hole called love.
i keep falling deeper into.
im hoping its a nice soft mattress.
instead of spikes and rocks.

but i'll just keep falling.. until i do something about it.
will you let me?

daddy got a year older.

happy birthday daddy.

and weilin's birthday is tommorrow
happy birthday to you too
=]

and you too tessa =]
happy birthday