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charles is tired.
quite tired actually.
he needs rest.
serious rest.
hahahaha
but but.
he doesnt think he will have the time for it.
with the exams coming up.
and the 7 week hols being eaten up by FOC.
and baracuda.

quite sianded by baracuda la.
perform also dun tell us where when.
for who, what event.
what we get.. eg. how many cca pts. if we even get any.
or food.
or something la.
you know.
incentives.
doesnt hurt to tell right.
(only say reporting time,and got improvment,what to wear)<=on the blog.
which is quite..
if we want to erm..
tell our friends..
to come down to suport..
or something..
its quite hard.


cause i think its quite sad...
to have like so little support.

look at other CCAs.
see NRA.
i know they are very big la.
but still.
if one grp is performing.
other grps come and watch.
or the performing grps friends.
and people will stop and watch if theres a crowd right.
and the crowd gets bigger more will kaypoh.
and it will get bigger.
kk la..
dun say NRA.
they too pro liao...
erm...
see......
choir.
once i past their perfomance in ngee ann city.
they were singing.
and their friends came down.

k la k la.
its not that or anything.

the thing is that.
i tell my friends that im performing.
they ask when.
i can only tell them the reporting time.
oh man.
that feels so great.
and the...
approx. area.
eg.
school.
and school is dam "small" la omg
and being in the cca.
and not being able to tell them about our performances.
which is like the thing we live for.
is quite special.

so i can only tell them what is written on the blog.
yea...
cuz..
i lazy to take notes while haris is talking.
i know theres alot of stuff to write.
so im just bitching here.
yea.
i just have to bitch somewhere ah.
if not i dam buey song haha.
tsk la.
AHHH

and and.
tho i think my common test i did quite well.
but so did everyone.
so i dun think i am that safe.
i must get better then last sem
MUST.
cannot cannot.
ugh.
and within the 2 week break.
i returned EVERYTHING
to the books.
wow whee.
now i have to extort EVERYTHING back again.
freak la
that means im laggin.
alot.
i need to study.
really.
my math.
my eng mech.
my ael.
my everything la.

i need to change.
my lifestyle.
i think im too busy.
yea.

oh and poly talented.
i think its dead.
yea..

i dun have the mood.
to study.
to be good.
to be the best.
anymore.
i want to.
but cannot get myself to do it.
i need to get the drive back.
urgently.

and i think my social circle is becoming..
social dotted circle.
where are my friends.
sighs.
the ones i used to talk to.
some dissappeared.
some changed so much.
some are still there. but less active.
some too busy.
some this.
some that.
and it ends up with.
nothing.
sigh.

hahaha
i din know i can have so many problems.
tsk
what ever happened to hua hi tio ho.
hur hur


and to all my friends.
getting a girlfriend doesnt change the fact that you are my fren still.
please dun have the.
omg he got gf already btr dun disturb.
thinking.
im still charles.
im still human.
and i still want to have fun with you guys you know.
i want to have fun with her too.
but not just her.
k sounds wrong.
but u get the idea.

omg la.
think i can like.
breakdown.
hahahaha
but i wun.
cuz im too cool for that.
XD
so many things.
so many things.
so many.
many.

or maybe its just that the hols was all playing.
then now suddenlt got all these crap.
just suddenly pop out of nowhere.
then i cannot take it.
lets just hope its that.